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> . W.i.c.d. .
> . written late one october night in 1996 .
> . that night was rough. .
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> beauty?
> i don't have any
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> hey, that rhymed, maybe i'm a hiphop artist
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> or maybe not.
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> my music isn't beautiful. argh.... i can not express what i want to with
> this sound.... i want to scream at you.... i don't know... i want to
> scream-
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> eye flirting is the most joyous experience i've ever known.
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> sex *must* be good, but i don't entirely look forawrd to it.
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> typing as a means of expression is ... uninteresting to me right now.
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> ugly <=> beauty
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> -><- is a new operator i just made up. It means that the two
> expressions are different, and diametrically opposed, yet exactly the
> same. example:
> True -><- Not True
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> which can be read allowed: "My mother's stepmother is a goat"
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> now i want to delete.
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> i went down a page instead......
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> I want to be charming and yet.... I hate how charming people are... so
> happy. I'm *not* happy. Does that mean that I am unatractive?
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> Enough andgrogny. I feel like I will be less attractive the more I
> seperate myself from women. if you're a freudalist, then you may
> interpret that however you wish.
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> girls. pretty girls. they rarely smile at me. right now, i wish that
> they would smile at me more.
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> what is it in myself that hates what i am writing? These feelings are
> genuine- why do i detest them so much? perhaps i feel that they are
> unattractive?
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> I have an attractivness complex, i think. I feel, or felt, that I was
> unattracive and so developed a fear of being attractive, or of trying to
> be attractive. That's why I don't buy clothing very often- I feel like
> I'm trying to look better.
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> Is this healthy? It sure isn't the way to meet girls. argh argh.... i
> don't want to meet girls.......... this is another conundrum which I will
> attempt to work out- i *do* want to meet girls. just... i don't want to
> be a gigalo...
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> I'm not forward enough with girls, so i developed a complex about that
> similar to the one i have about attractivness. is this healthy?
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> The speed-seduction guy said that some guys sometimes fall to "nice-guy
> syndrome" The outer shell of me dismissed that, but some inner me was
> deeply hurt by that. "Am I just too nice?" I hope not. It could be
> true. <whine/cry> WHAT ABOUT LOVE!?!??!! I WANNA FALL IN
> LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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> *sigh* how much emphasis do i _really_ put on physical appearance? too
> much. I hate myself for it. i feel icky and superficial. but i imagine
> a model when I picture my love.
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> Of course, on personality side... there are several people who I base the
> personality of my dream woman on, and I'd list them here, but i'm not sure
> that no-body will read this yet, so i'll just keep that one inside the
> head for now.
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> I'm the good guy. All that I want girls to know about me is that I'm the
> good guy. You have all seen a movie where there is a good guy and a bad
> guy? Well, if you fell in love with the good guy, then give me a
> chance...
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> oh man, now i'm detesting my text again `=^('
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> (for interested parties, I wrote this all late one night in October 96. I
> did fall in love, and sex is da bomb. This is a testament to loneliness-
> may I always cherish the love that I have)
> .

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